Trying to be creative again.

In 2020 I had an explosion of creative energy and was all gung-ho about painting. In about a year my passion was still strong, but my fears of becoming a professional artist had risen. By the end of the summer, I had decided to put art back on the shelf to pursue writing. I even went as far as to change majors and took a blow to the ego when the classes did not bode well for my GPA and went back to social science. Now, after all this time I'm returning to art and taking time off of school for my mental health.

The issue here is that now that my drawing hand is rusty, and I feel like I was left in the dust by many artists my age, I feel a sense of panic about jumping back into the mix. Insecurity about your future is a normal thing to feel at 23 I've heard, and I would even say I'm in the midst of a moment some would say is "finding yourself". As cringy as that sounds I would agree, and I've revamped my old editing website to get my name out there as an artist, specifically an illustrator.

My old work all comes from storytelling and the technical skills I have been working on since I "quit" art have brought me to a point where I want to do illustration as a career. The climb to this point where I even can admit that to myself has been insane but has also brought so much more joy to my life.

Just the simple things like dusting off my old art supply boxes and cracking open a new sketchbook without random notes in it, meant solely for my art, have been invigorating. I can't wait to share more as I go along in this journey with you all. I'm attaching the first piece I've decided to dedicate an extended amount of time to in 3 years. It's a work in progress currently in the inking phase, considering using pastel and watercolor to finish it off. Wishing everyone the best!